PLEASE READ THESE TERMS:Y Thursday, August 16, 2007Y
11:08 PM
its been more than two months since i last blogged.sorraye ehh.
malas larr nk update.
tkde paper pon yg nk diupdatekn.
nd i've been busy for the past few days.
weeks or months i must say.
i suddenly have the urge to blog today.
i can't wait to see who comes to visit me tomorrow.
i dun really look forward larr.
see what i meant by malas nk blog?
i dun even have a topic to start off.
SAKET HATIIIIIIII!!!!!
urgh!!
just buzz off and dun ever talk to me again larr!!
why did this have to even happen??!!!
i just dun understand.
u said that you cant afford to watch me cry?
nd what are you trying to do now?
watch me moan?!
guys nd they're sweet talks.
if i were to have a razor blade right now, i think i would have thousands of cut on my wrists like those that i've done in front of zul!
i swear that upon GOD!
i just can't understand larr!!
what did i even do to deserve all this?
have i done something to upset you??
even if i have, why don't you just talk it out?!
what's you're motive of making me feel this way?
well, you chose things to be this way.
we'll follow how you chose it to be like okay?
am i not good enough for you?!
than so be it.
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lets just not talk to each other okay?!!
until i dunnoe when?!!!!
TILL THEN.
Labels: luahan hati yang telah terpendam buat masa yang lama.
Y Friday, June 15, 2007Y
6:51 PM
When You're Gone by Avril LavigneI always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
Labels: A SONG SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO ZULKARNAIN TO TELL HIM HOW MUCH I MISS HIM.
Y Wednesday, June 13, 2007Y
1:56 PM
heyho!ytd.
a day of worrying nd saddening.
first, i msg him. a few times. but non of my msges are being replied.
i was so worried.afraid something not right happens to him.
hmmm...
then as soon as i got back home, i went to my room nd to my great suprise,i saw my bestest home buddy nd room-mate crying in front of her cupboard.
it was opened.
i went over to ask.she was reluctant to speak to me.
i understand.a broken mirror in her hands.
what was she trying to do?
i chose not to ask but i DID take the mirror away from her.
let her cry her heart out nd let her calm down.
i'm still worried at home.
bout both him nd her.
during contact time, my birthday pressie broke.x(
pastu i went to keep it in my drawer lh.
tros i opened my memory box.
i read all the letters supposedly for qayyum.
it all sounded so true.
it IS true till now.
but what can i do.
lets just hope nd pray for the best.
i slept with the box in my arms.
thurs , kenduri one week at ma'wa(abg).
fri , barbecue at ma'wa.
barbecues makes me think of our late abg.
coz the first time i barbecued with bdk bdk ma'wa, he was the DJ for the night.
now that hes not around........
well, lets not talk bout it.
ermm...
to: azlina
Dear friend,
do know that i'll always be here for you. if you ever feel down or not well.
cos you are the one friend that makes me realise the good nd the bad of things.nd i
thank you for that.
Yasmeen
Labels: thats what friends are for.
Y Monday, June 11, 2007Y
1:06 AM
heyhey!its been a long time since i last updated.
i somehow have difficulties to do so.
now, im stuck with this "voluntary" job that i nd the other residents have to do.
hayio!
first,we're not payed.
then, they scold us for taking our time to do the job.
haiyo!!
waet.
im still not over with the loss of him.
he's gone.
for good.
hais...
sesungguhnya masamu sudah tiba.
dan aku akan senantiasa mendoa dan menyedekahkan al-fateha(yg terkurang) kepada kau kerana kau t'lah bnyk membantu kami.
dan semoga kau diberkatiNYA,dan doa-doaku dapat menjadi bekalanmu di akhirat nanti.
IN LOVING MEMORY OF SHARUL NIZAM RUSTAM BaDbOyZ Traz.
may you rest in peace.
ya allah, kau tabahkanlah hati ini untuk menerima segala dugaan dan cobaan.
aku seakan tak redha dengan takdirmu.
aku juga seakan rela dalam paksa.
tolonglah tabahkan hati ini. hati ini yg amat lemah.
kuatkanlah semangatku.
060607-both a happy nd sad day.
definitely a date NOT to forget.
DONE!
DO tag!
Y Sunday, May 13, 2007Y
5:07 AM
hey ho hello!sitting here, trying to move on yet cant nd wont be able to.
haiyo!
he is just so different okay?!
i dunnoe what makes him so different, but he is different!
i've made my decicions.
to say my final goodbye to him and i shall not disturb him!
i know i am irritating.
my existance IS a NIGHTMARE to you.
so, let me leave with a thousand sins.
teringin sekali aku lihat kau bahagia.
jika pemergianku akan membuatmu bahagia, aku akan pergi buat SELAMANYA.
dan tak mungkin aku akan kembali lagi untuk mengganggu hidupmu lagi.
YA ALLAH, mengapa aku seperti menyiksa diri dengan memikirkan apa yang telah pergi dan tak mungkin akan kembali untuk diri ini.
aku seakan tak menerima takdirmu.
hukumilah diri ini setimpal dengan dosa-dosaku.
berilah aku petunjuk untuk terus hidup.
dan berkatilah hidupnya.jauhilah dia dari segala keburukan.
lindungilah dia. letakkan lah dia di syurga firdausmu kerana dia adalah insan yang layak dimasuki ke tempat itu.
SELAMAT TINGGAL KEKASIHKU.
lagu ini adalah untukmu.
Labels: SELAMAT TINGGAL
Y Saturday, May 05, 2007Y
5:29 AM
hey there.i might not blog that much today.
coz im very tired today.
slept at 3.30 am last night.
i couldn't sleep larr!
i just somehow felt that something is going to go wrong nd that thing WILL make me cry.
nd it did!
i dunnoe how, but somehow miss him so much!
does he even acknowledge my love towards and for him?!
i let out my whole feelings to aieen last night.
glad that she was around.
and i STILL have that feeling tau.
im so worried!
hais...
woke up at 6 am in the morning just now.
then straight away go sembahyang suboh.
i prayed very hard to get that feeling off me.
then after pray, go back to sleep until azlina woke me up for rakan raleigh.
cpt cpt go nd mandi then siap.
i was like so tk terlarat sehh.
just go for the sake of going larr.
rock-climbed half way then tkleh tahan anymore so i went down.
arm power not strong enough larr.
then relak relaks.
actually i REALLY cried before rock-climbing.
fucking attitude problem child!
urgh!
im so irritated by him!
haiyo!! get away larr.
but the facilitators were there to comfort me down.
THANK GOD!
i cried my whole heart out!
then more confidence to rock-climb.
go back, bath(badan berlengas siak!) then siap to go out with mummy fawzia.
go parkway nd carik brg-brg yg kat rumah tkder.
spent $77.30 at ISETAN only.
OMG!! that is a lot siah.
then ate at burger king.YUMMY!
then go popular.
saw many things like want to buy.
then carik my kakak's birthday pressie!
she loves to write nd she loves mickey mouse like i do!
so i decided to get her this mickey mouse writting pad.
then bought this book.veryy lawa tau.
had the word 'LOVE' on the cover.
pastu carik jug cm nk mampos tk jumpa.
gi kedai tidbits nd bought PUSH-POP!!
weee!~haha.
then balik.
nd now here i am blogging bout what basically happened today.
now, its time to SCREAM my heart out!!
hais...
i just dunnoe of anymore things or ways to show you how much i love nd need you by my side everyday!
aren't you glad that you just made someone change for the better?!
hmm...
i believe what i said was true.
YOU are the reason for me to keep breathing nd live on each day without being afraid to look on the brightside.
pls... remember that in mind my dear.
I LOVE YOU!
CROSS MY HEART&SLIT MY THROAT I DO!!
IF YOU FEEL THAT I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU, THEN IT IS YOU.
that felt better.
tkcr lh.
DO tag okayy?!
adios!
Y Thursday, May 03, 2007Y
6:50 AM
hey!!hmm.
tmrw ss paper.
ND I HAVENT STARTED STUDYING AT ALL!!
nd i anyhow answer my history paper just now siah!!
im just left to hope for the BEST!
haha.
but i got confidence lorr!!
i have more confidence for tmrw's paper.
haha.
coz i have been paying attention to ms veronica tan in class.
i scared art lahh!!!
i havent started my prepration AT ALL!!
haiyo!!
VERY BUSY!
sometimes, too busy to even eat!
nvm nvm.
i shall do my VERY best for MYE'07!!
weee!~
nd today, is confessions day for me.
i thought it was mandi-hujan day for me today.
but the rain stopped after history paper.
BACEN!!
tidak kesampaian sehh niat nk mandi hujan.
))=
tkpe..
tmrw nvr dies.
to myself, i hope i do extremely well for the MYE!!
btw saiful, this is for you!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAIFUL ANAK ROSLI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
haha. enjoy being exactly 15 today ok?!
tkcr.
DO TAG!
Labels: CONFESSION FEAT MANDI-HUJAN BUT TK KESAMPAIAN FEAT NVR STUDY DAY